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Somthing that's been on my mind

Posted by BlakeTakesTheCake - 1 month ago

I've been really afraid that I have autism. I don't have it or think I have it, I'm just afraid that I could have it. I was tested for mental conditions when I was 12 (all I was diagnosed with was anxiety(in the fucking 97% percentile)) and I feel like I should take it again, just to be safe. But if I do have it, what will happen? I feel like I won't be treated like a person. I'll be treated like an autistic person, instead of a person with autism. I feel like wouldn't get a girlfriend. No one at my school would want an autistic boyfriend. I feel like people will only talk with me because they feel like they have to. If they aren't nice to me, they'll feel like they will be expelled from school. Whenever I say stuff, it always doesn't come out the way I think it will. I feel like people will automatically lump me in with the sped kids at my school.

I'm probably overthinking this way too fucking much, but I just wanted to get it off my chest.

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DeaghlanNG 2025-02-26 22:27:30

PM'd you, don't worry about it.

AlexToolStudio 2025-02-26 22:29:34

@DeaghlanNG you remind me of a NG therapist

DeaghlanNG 2025-02-26 22:31:37

@AlexToolStudio
Ironically I've hated every therapist I've ever met LOL

I just have strong opinions and not much to lose expressing them.

GoldShinx 2025-02-26 22:43:29

if you do have it, they won't treat you differently.
from my experience, the most you'll get is someone questioning what it means/what it's like to be on the spectrum, you'd have to encounter a massive piece of shit to find someone who'll judge you for it.

DeaghlanNG 2025-02-26 22:59:33

@GoldShinx
Sorry to break it to you, but the world is full of massive pieces of shit. You are more likely to meet like minded people in online communities, but if you enter the world of work expecting everyone to be nice - it will not work out well imo.

GoldShinx 2025-02-26 23:21:30

@DeaghlanNG it's just my personal experience, I'll definitely admit that there are some major assholes out there, but I've personally rarely encountered anyone like that

DeaghlanNG 2025-02-26 23:28:04

@GoldShinx
Wish I was that lucky, I'm practically a major asshole magnet.

chaoticallyGeneric 2025-02-27 20:17:53

as an autistic person myself, getting diagnosed can be stressful, especially when you look at it from a social viewpoint. but if you find more people that are autistic near you, it can be grounds for a new friendship! and there will always be someone that'll stick by your side, i promise!

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